Baby Anxiety!

I'm DYING to get this little woman out here into the world, but I'm so back and forth with it right now. I've just become fully aware of how long FOREVER is as a parent. And it's not that I'm not ready and willing to make that sacrifice...it's that I'm not sure that everything is ready for her. The place isn't clean enough for a new baby...it's not big enough...it's not safe enough..it's not perfect..enough. I've read about this ridiculous desire to nest with the upcoming arrival, but I've been nesting for months, and I still don't feel like this place is ready. And now I'm afraid I'm running out of time! I've been packing the place up for the move, so maybe it just feels kind of cluttered right now. I can't wait to move into the house! Only 2 1/2 more weeks of this crappy apartment! YAY! I'm hoping Anna comes sooner rather than later so that we can get a little used to our sleeping patterns :) The good news, is that if she comes on her due dat, Jim is off that whole week anyway for paternity leave, and he can pretty much get the place in order before he goes back to work. We've been SO blessed with pretty much everyone we know offering to help move our things and help us unpack it all. Or come hold Anna while we unpack it all. That took the stress right out of moving! I've been having really vivid dreams about miss Anna lately. It's weird. She's always way older...like 4 or 5. I can't picture her as an infant for some reason. I'm not afraid of parenthood..but I'm afraid of giving her a bath! I'm afraid she'll be all slippery and jump right out of my hands! I would have a nervous breakdown right then. :)